The Plan Never Changed – He Sees Us and Our Struggles

There was a moment in my youth where I learned a lesson I didn’t understand until much later. It happened during a Boy Scout outing one summer. We were out on the bay near my hometown, and it was the first time I ever learned how to paddle a canoe.

Okay, so what — you got to go out on the water, learn to paddle, in a canoe. What’s the big deal?

Here’s the lesson.

On the way back to shore, the tide was going out. We were paddling against it. Not upstream on a river — against the tide of the bay. And the harder we paddled, the slower we moved. Every inch forward took every ounce of strength we had.

Life feels like that sometimes. Recovery feels like that often. You’re straining at the oars, wondering if you’re even moving, wondering when you’ll reach the destination, wondering when the struggle will ease.

I didn’t think about that moment again until I came across a reel of a guy with a sideways cap, tattoos, and piercings teaching on Mark 6 — the same chapter where Jesus feeds the 5,000, right after He receives word of John the Baptist’s death, and right after He commissions the Twelve to preach the Gospel.

Anchor Verse — Mark 6:47–48 (NRSVUE): “When evening came, the boat was out on the sea, and he was alone on the land. When he saw that they were straining at the oars against an adverse wind, he came toward them early in the morning, walking on the sea. He intended to pass them by.”

And that’s where everything shifted. Pastor Kelly K said something that stopped me cold: If Jesus saw them, He sees you too.” The disciples were in serious trouble — rowing hard, struggling against the wind and waves. And Jesus saw them long before He ever stepped onto the water. Just like He sees you. Then came the line that most of us have never paid attention to: “He intended to go past them.” Why would Jesus walk toward them… but not stop?

From Surviving to Thriving: The Spiritual Awakening Every Christian in Recovery Needs

If you’re not familiar with the early story of Alcoholics Anonymous, it’s often said that the ideas behind the Twelve Steps were shaped by the Oxford Group—a gathering of Christian men committed to honesty, confession, restitution, and surrender. Bill Wilson, one of AA’s founders, was deeply influenced by them. But today’s devotional isn’t about the origins of AA. It’s about a man named Rowland Hazard, whose struggle with alcoholism led him to seek help from the famed psychiatrist Carl Jung in the early 1930s.

After extensive treatment, Jung told Hazard something that sounds harsh but is deeply honest: his condition was hopeless from a medical standpoint. His only hope, Jung said, was a spiritual experience—a profound awakening that would transform him from the inside out. That realization eventually shaped the foundation of AA itself. Hazard’s spiritual awakening, experienced through the Oxford Group, was shared with Bill Wilson, and from that encounter the Twelve Steps were born.

Let’s sit with that for a moment. Because in my own journey—through recovery, sobriety, homelessness, fear, doubt, and a faith crisis—I had to face the same truth: everything was utterly hopeless until I had a spiritual awakening. Some call it “hitting bottom.” But I’ve come to see it as the moment the Holy Spirit reveals Christ to us in a way the intellect alone could never reach.

Today, many try to think their way into faith. They know about God but never come to know God Himself. And that brings us to the heart of today’s message: What does it mean to truly know God—and Jesus Christ whom He has sent? (John 17:3)

Our anchor verse is Isaiah 1:18–20, where God invites us to “come and reason together.”

Come now, let us argue it out, says the Lord: if your sins are like scarlet, will they become like snow? If they are red like crimson, will they become like wool? If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land, but if you refuse and rebel, you shall be devoured by the sword, for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.

This is not an intellectual debate—it is an invitation to examine our hearts, our wounds, our failures, and our inability to save ourselves. It is a call to return, to be still, and to know that He is God.

Today, we explore what it means to know Christ, to know the Father, and to know who we truly are through a genuine spiritual awakening.

Learning to Love Myself Through God’s Eyes

Learning to love myself was the first mountain I ever had to climb in recovery. Jesus said the greatest commandment is to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength—and the second is like it: to love our neighbor as ourselves. I thought I loved God. I thought I loved others. But I had never learned how to love me. And when I finally faced that truth, I realized I didn’t just “not love myself”—I despised myself.

When I was drunk and alone, I’d curse myself. I’d repeat the harsh words spoken over me by others—especially family. Emotional abuse, degradation, bullying, name‑calling… all of it became the internal script I lived by. I believed I was worthless, stupid, manipulative, selfish, unlovable. And because I believed it, I lived it.

So I kept God at arm’s length. I kept people at arm’s length. I feared abandonment, rejection, and judgment. I feared giving God my whole heart because I assumed He would eventually reject me too. Shame became the lens through which I saw myself, others, and God.

But recovery forced me to confront the lies. It forced me to ask: Who does God say I am? And in that painful, holy unraveling, I began to learn to love God with what little I had. I began to see myself through His eyes. And only then could I begin to love others with sincerity, depth, and courage.

Anchor verse – Hebrews 1:3 – He is the reflection of God’s glory and the exact imprint of God’s very being, and he sustains all things by his powerful word. When he had made purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high.

Christ is the exact imprint of God’s being—and through Him, we learn who God is, who we are, and how deeply we are loved.

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From Rockpiles to Cathedrals

I never realized how many various rock-piles I’ve carried with me. And I also realized I was not alone because every one of us carries rock-piles – a place in our lives that feels heavy, unfinished, unlovely, or overwhelming. In the throes of our addiction, codependency, fear, shame – a relationship may feel stuck. A past feels immovable. A future feels uncertain.

However, scripture insists that God sees more in us than the rubble we carry. He sees the cathedral hidden inside the stones.

Anchor verse – Isaiah 61:3: “…to give them a garland instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the mantle of praise instead of faint spirit. They will be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, to display his glory.”

God does not merely remove the ashes – He transforms them. He does not simply clear the rubble – He builds something enduring, beautiful, and strong.

Welcome back fellow travelers. As we continue our journey through sacred sobriety, we pause today to consider the quiet miracle of imagination – holy imagination. The ability to see what God sees. The courage to believe that the rubble of our lives is not the end of our story.

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When Confession Breaks the Illusion: Walking in the Light of Real Recovery

William James once wrote: “For him who confesses, shams are over and realities have begun; he has exteriorized his rottenness.”

Confession ends the exhausting work of pretending. It pulls what is hidden into the light—not to shame us, but to free us. In recovery, confession is not a one‑time event; it is a rhythm, a posture, a way of walking honestly before God and others. It invites us to step into authenticity, shedding the masks we often wear and revealing the true selves beneath.

When we consider the act of confession, it is crucial to understand that it goes far beyond simply admitting wrongdoings. It encompasses acknowledging our vulnerabilities, our fears, and our shortcomings. It is about facing the parts of ourselves that we might prefer to keep hidden or buried deep within. Confession invites us into a space of liberation, where we can experience the healing power of honesty, not just with ourselves, but with those around us.

Anchor verse – 1 John 1:9 – “If we confess our sins, he who is faithful and just will forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

This divine reassurance underscores the importance of confession in our lives. This is never a one-and-done moment. Confessing our sins is an active part of our path and spiritual growth. There is a continuous invitation to engage in this practice, to reflect regularly on our actions and attitudes, and to communicate them with sincerity. The act of confession can take various forms: it might be through prayer, journaling, or discussions with trusted friends and mentors.

There is also a communal aspect to confession; it’s about allowing others to bear witness to our journey of growth. This sharing fosters deeper connections, trust, and support within our communities. Confession can also serve as a catalyst for accountability, encouraging us to maintain our commitments to growth and change.

And there is more to confessing than we may fully understand. What are some of the ways we may confess? And what does it refer to when it says to confess our sins? What exactly are we confessing? Most of us may answer that we are to confess any wrongdoing on our part. And that is definitely an aspect of confessing.

But it may also refer to confessing our failures, our doubts, and our feelings of inadequacy. It may involve voicing the pain we carry and the burdens we bear, creating an opportunity for healing. Confession is a profound act of vulnerability that invites grace and understanding into our lives, not only from God but also from those around us who may offer support and encouragement. Through confession, we can truly experience the freedom that comes with honesty, forgiveness, and a renewed sense of purpose on our spiritual journey.

Today – we are going to take a look at how confession is the very courage to stop pretending. To step out of the idea that we need to fake it till we make it. And to see how this all ties into a twelve-step recovery program for Christians walking a path of recovery, desiring to thrive in their sobriety.

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WEEKLY RECAP: WALKING IN TRUTH — A Sacred Sobriety Reflection

Our daily walk in recovery and thriving in sobriety provides a story. I love what the apostle Paul writes, “You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by all, and you show that you are a letter of Christ, prepared by us, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets that are human hearts.” (2 Corinthians 3:2-3, NRSVUE). Our testimonies are living epistles. This is the reason I love what is said in the Celebrate Recovery rooms, ‘He took my mess and turned it into a message and took my test and turned it into a testimony.”

These stories are of struggle, of quiet faithfulness – and yet always a story of God’s sovereign and divine grace in our moments of weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). This past week, the devotional messages formed a single thread woven through four powerful themes.

  • Spiritual Discernment
  • Spiritual Direction
  • Mindful Prayer
  • Distinctiveness of a life transformed by Christ

Each one of these messages point us back to one central truth: Thriving in recovery and sobriety requires spiritual clarity, honest self-examination, and a heart anchored in Christ. And through the acrostics – we explored:

  • T.R.U.T.H
  • D.I.R.E.C.T.I.O.N
  • P.R.A.Y.E.R
  • H.O.L.Y

Hopefully you discovered a pathway that strengthens your heart, mind, and spirit; steadies the steps of anyone seeking lasting freedom.

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Pressing Into the Profit of Prayer

Have you ever had someone challenge you regarding prayer? Maybe mock you for praying? Perchance you’ve had someone tell you that they no longer have faith in God because their prayers never were answered, and they questioned the existence of God.

The ancient skeptic in Job sneered, “What is the Almighty, that we should serve him? And what profit should we have if we pray to him?” (Job 21:15). Tozer notes that the tone was dripping with contempt, tossed aside “like Pilate, without waiting for a reply.” Yet Scripture and the lived testimony of the saints thunder back: there is profit in prayer—much every way.

Tozer writes, “An invitation to prayer is an invitation to omnipotence, for prayer engages the Omnipotent God and brings Him into our human affairs.” This statement is staggering and profound. It launches us into the reality that prayer transcends mere verbal expression; it allows us to interact with the divine authority of God Himself. Prayer is not a religious hobby; rather, it is the God-ordained means by which heaven bends low into human history. When we pray, we are not simply whispering into the void—we are summoning the God who parts seas, raises the dead, and renews the weary.

Perhaps the most compelling aspect of prayer is that it is not bound by the limitations of human understanding or experience. The act of prayer invites the supernatural into our mundane realities, connecting us with the Creator who desires to be intimately involved in our lives. How often do we overlook the opportunity to engage the infinite just because we cannot see immediate results? Tozer emphasizes this beautifully. “An invitation to prayer is an invitation to omnipotence, for prayer engages the Omnipotent God and brings Him into our human affairs.”

As Scripture reminds us, the anchor verse – Hebrews 11:6“Without faith it is impossible to please God, for whoever would approach him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.” In times of doubt and uncertainty, this verse serves as a crucial reminder of the foundational belief that our faith ignites our relationship with God—the very essence that fuels our prayers and hopes.

In a world that still echoes Job’s question, we stand firm on the testimony of the ages. Tozer reminds us that “God Himself has supplied the answer, and the universal consensus of the ages has added an Amen.” The saints testify across time: prayer works because God works. Prayer profits because God is present. Prayer transforms because God responds.

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Facing Both Ways: When Christian Recovery Loses Its Direction and the Soul Begins to Drift

I have found moments in my own recovery journey, faith, and life when I realized I have been living divided. One part of my heart longs for God, healing, peace, and truth. Yet, another part wanted to reach back toward toxic patterns, unhealthy attachments, worldly validation, and spiritual compromise. And I found that I am not alone – many people today are exhausted, not because they do not love Christ, because they are attempting to face two different directions at once. This is the spiritual condition A.W. Tozer exposed quite powerfully within Chapter Seven of his work The Set of the Sail. The chapter is titled, Facing Both Ways. Tozer observed a Christianity that spoke Christian lingo while slowly adopting worldly values. He warned of a divided orientation – a soul that attempted to follow God while remaining emotionally attached to the systems that once kept the person in bondage.

For many of us fellow travelers, walking through recovery from addiction, codependency, family dysfunction, spiritual abuse, or faith crisis, this tension feels painfully familiar. Each of us desires freedom, yet sometimes we mourn the chains left behind. We seek Christ, yet fear surrendering our life and will over to His care. We pray for healing yet continue to entertain voices that have wounded us.

However, the Gospel never calls us to a divided direction. Christ invites us into His rest with a wholehearted orientation.

Anchor Verse – Psalm 16:8 (NRSVUE): “I have set the Lord before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.”

A divided heart creates instability. Scripture teaches that “the double-minded are unstable in every way” (James 1:8, NRSVUE). Recovery becomes quite fragile when our own direction is unclear. Faith becomes shallow when we attempt to seek both the approval of God and the acceptance of unhealthy systems that tend to distract and lead us away from Him.

Today, let’s take a moment to reflect on how Tozer diagnosed modern Christianity with what he called dual orientation. Theology that faces God, yet desires continue facing the world. The result is spiritual confusion, emotional exhaustion, compromised conviction, and diluted discipleship.

Let’s face it: many Christians on a path of recovery understand this quite deeply and personally. Addiction itself is often rooted in divided affection – wanting peace while feeding into the chaos. Desiring intimacy while hiding in the darkness of dysfunction. Wanting God yet remaining emotionally tethered to destructive patterns.

Christ does not merely improve our attitude and behavior – He reorients the entire person. Are you ready for a spiritual reorientation of the heart, mind, and spirit today?

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We Must Test the Spirits of Recovery and Sobriety

When recovery meets revelation, discernment becomes a moment of thriving in sobriety. We test substances for purity — why not spirits? The same vigilance that guards sobriety must guard faith. The relapse of the soul begins when we stop testing what we trust.

We find ourselves in a time when the mantra of “to thine own self be true” echoes throughout recovery circles, highlighting a growing trend that prioritizes subjective authenticity over absolute truths. This modern movement in recovery and sobriety often veers away from the profound spiritual truths embedded in Scripture and the Christian faith, diluting the very essence of what it means to be truly free.

In this era of counterfeit light, our culture is awash with spiritual noise—false prophets promising quick fixes, hollow promises of peace, and fleeting joys that inevitably fade. Many are turning to a version of recovery that embraces personal desire and subjective experience over divine guidance and genuine transformation.

Yet, Christ calls us to something deeper. He invites us not into cynicism or despair but into a clear and sober understanding of our identity in Him. True sobriety is not merely the absence of substances; it is the presence of a spirit anchored in truth. It is about discerning the lies that this world offers and embracing the flawless truth of God’s Word.

As we embark on this journey of genuine recovery, let us challenge the shallow waters of modern self-discovery and dive into the depths of spiritual sobriety. Surrendering to Christ means shedding the noise of empty promises and embracing the clarity that comes from knowing Him. True recovery is about reclaiming our lives from distraction, grounding ourselves in faith, and walking in the light of His truth.

In a world saturated with uncertainty, let us hold fast to the enduring hope found in Christ, where true transformation begins and lasting sobriety thrives. Are you ready to embrace a recovery journey that leads to true freedom?

Anchor Verse:Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God; for many false prophets have gone out into the world.” – 1 John 4:1, NRSVUE

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Healing Together — Join Today’s Livestream Devotional

There are moments in our journey when God invites us to step out of isolation and into something deeper — something healing, something holy, something shared. Today’s livestream devotional, Healing Together: The S.A.I.N.T.S. Path to Spiritual Recovery, is one of those moments.

If you’ve been carrying burdens alone… If you’ve been trying to heal in silence… If you’ve been longing for connection, clarity, or renewal… This devotional is for you.

Today we’re walking through the S.A.I.N.T.S. framework — a powerful, Spirit‑led path that shows us how God heals us through community, not apart from it. We’ll explore what it means to be:

  • Sanctified Together
  • Anchored in Christ
  • Interdependent, Not Independent
  • Nourished by the Word
  • Transformed in Fellowship
  • Sent to Serve

This isn’t just another message. It’s an invitation into the divine workshop of the soul — where Christ refines us, restores us, and surrounds us with people who help us grow.

🕕 Live at 6 AM PST 📍 Streaming on YouTube, Facebook, Instagram, TikTok, and X

Come join us. Bring your coffee, your Bible, your questions, your story — and your hope. You don’t have to heal alone. You were never meant to.

Step out of the shadows. Step into the communion of saints.