The Architecture of Anger: Navigating Threats, Expectations, and Addiction in the Refiner’s Fire of Recovery

Anger is not a random eruption. It is a structure—a system of triggers, distortions, and emotional wounds that form a predictable pattern. This understanding of anger as a structured response is crucial because it helps us identify the root causes of our emotions rather than viewing them as mere spontaneous reactions. In recovery, gaining insights into this architecture becomes essential for healing and personal growth. Consider this, “Anger is a progressive challenge in recovery and a symptom of deeper pain.”

This notion emphasizes that anger often masks underlying issues, such as unresolved trauma, anxiety, or fear. By acknowledging these connections, we can address the true sources of our anger instead of simply reacting to it. When we learn to map its components—recognizing our triggers, understanding the distortions in our thought patterns, and confronting our emotional wounds—we stop being acted upon by these feelings.

In doing so, we transition from a passive experience of anger to one where we can act with spiritual clarity and agency. This active engagement allows us to express our emotions constructively, facilitating healthier interactions and fostering deeper connections with ourselves and others. Embracing the complexity of anger paves the way for genuine healing and allows for the development of coping strategies that contribute to a balanced emotional life. Ultimately, this journey empowers us to reclaim our well-being and operate from a place of understanding and compassion.

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The Architecture of Grace: A Systematic Analysis of the Everlasting Covenant

Jacob’s story is not the tale of a man who finally got his act together. It is the story of a God who refused to let go. From the well where Rebekah ran to serve a stranger, to the night Jacob wrestled until dawn, Genesis 24–33 reveals a God who enters the grit of human weakness and patiently reshapes a people who learn—slowly, painfully, beautifully—to let Him prevail. This is not ancient history; it is the architecture of grace still unfolding in every disciple who dares to surrender.

Every scene in this week’s Come, Follow Me block is a doorway into covenant transformation. A servant prays at a well and finds a woman whose kindness alters the future. Two brothers clash over a birthright that neither fully understands. A fugitive dreams of a ladder where heaven touches earth. A deceiver becomes Israel. A wounded family becomes whole again. These are not disconnected stories; they are covenant threads woven by a God who meets His children in deserts, dreams, and wrestles—and invites them into a life only He can build.

The New Testament echoes these moments at every turn: Christ offering living water at Jacob’s well, the Father running to embrace a prodigal son, the Savior calling His disciples to leave lesser things for eternal ones. The Book of Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants, and Pearl of Great Price amplify the same truth: God prevails when His children yield.

This study follows an expository and exegetical method—tracing themes of covenant, surrender, revelation, reconciliation, and divine guidance across the Old Testament, New Testament, Restoration scripture, and the teachings of modern prophets. It is expository, exegetical, devotional, and practical. It is written for individuals who want more than information—they want transformation.

If you’ve ever wrestled with God, waited for answers, feared reconciliation, or wondered whether He remembers you, Genesis 24–33 is your story. And the God who prevailed in Jacob’s life is ready to prevail in yours.

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Latter-day Saint Faith as a “Narcissistic System”? A Structured, Evidence – Based Response

Is the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints a high-demand and structurally narcissistic organization? Apparently, this is the newest claim being peddled on podcasts and social media networks, gaining traction in various online circles. And it is quite telling for such a bold claim. It is one thing to share personal experiences and insights into how faith in Christ led to the healing of trauma and abuse, which can foster a sense of community and understanding. However, what is defiantly and demonstratively uncalled for is the onslaught of these claims that are thrown around with terms like gaslighting, narcissistic tendencies, and arm-chair pop-psychology vernacular, often lacking in substantiation or context. Such language can be inflammatory and misleading, reducing complex issues into simplistic labels. It seems to be more of a projection of the one making these claims and not about sound, objective, and reasonable arguments that are rested on evidence-based truths and realities, which are essential for a thoughtful and constructive discourse. In this climate of social media sensationalism, it is crucial to approach such sensitive discussions with nuance and an emphasis on genuine dialogue rather than sensational accusations.

And enter a recent episode of the Almost Awakened podcast where Teresa Hobbs attempts to argue that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is not merely a high demand religion; but it is structurally narcissistic. She claims the church mirrors the dynamics of narcissistic abuse, breeds codependency, suppresses intuition, and even contributes to chronic illness and nervous-system dysregulation.

Now, do not hear what I am not saying (or in this case read into what I am not saying). I am not making light of someone’s traumatic experience – nor should any make light of someone’s past where they struggled with abuse, family history of dysfunction, and even their own addictions and mental health challenges. It is crucial to approach these topics with sensitivity and understanding.

Neither am I here to offer any clinical or therapeutic advice, medical recommendations, or render any professional diagnosis. The nuances of mental health issues require a level of expertise that extends far beyond casual conversation or podcasting. Many listeners may find themselves grappling with their own experiences, and the last thing they need is a misinformed diagnosis or unfounded advice. It is important to encourage individuals to seek professional help if they are facing significant challenges.

The sad reality – when these podcasters speak and throw around the terms narcissism, gaslighting, and do not make any disclaimer, they most likely are offering up a diagnosis and recommendations. Both of which is unprofessional and unethical and does more harm than good for their audience. In doing so, they risk invalidating the real and complex experiences of those who have genuinely faced such issues, and they undermine the credibility of mental health conversations.

Furthermore, creating a false sense of understanding about such intricate dynamics can lead to a slew of misconceptions. It must be emphasized that discussions around mental health, especially in relation to specific organizations, require great care and should prioritize the lived experiences of individuals, incorporating scientific understanding and the need for professional guidance.

There is good reason one needs to provide such a disclaimer. It not only protects the integrity of the conversation but also respects the audience by acknowledging the complexity of psychological issues. Offering blanket statements or proclamations without context distracts from meaningful dialogue and can lead to a harmful oversimplification of serious matters. It is essential for podcasters and content creators to recognize the responsibility that comes with discussing sensitive topics, ensuring that they equip their listeners with proper resources rather than inadvertently misguiding them.

And so, what is the reason to respond to this recent podcaster’s claim? Given what I just said? Because the host, Teresa Hobbs, is making a very serious accusatory claim about the LDS Faith – one that delves into the lived experiences of individuals who have suffered real trauma, abuse, and dysfunction. These claims are not just mere allegations; they bear significant weight as they touch upon deeply personal and painful stories that countless individuals carry with them. It also speaks more harm in condemning and judging many who live healthy, productive lives – specifically, many who have overcome their past issues, demonstrating resilience and strength. By unfairly generalizing the experiences of a few, Hobbs risks painting an entire community in a negative light, overshadowing the positive contributions and transformations of those who strive to move forward. Furthermore, such a narrative can perpetuate stigma and misunderstanding, detracting from the support and understanding that so many seek and deserve. It is crucial to engage with these topics thoughtfully, considering the wide-ranging implications that come with public discourse, especially when it involves faith and personal recovery journeys.

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Day 2 – A Single Step

And there are also secret combinations, even as in times of old, according to the combinations of the devil, for he is the founder of all these things; yea, … and he leadeth them by the neck with a flaxen cord, until he bindeth them with his strong cords forever.
~ 2 Nephi 26:22 ~

There’s a reason the scriptures don’t say the adversary drags us with chains from the beginning. They say he starts with a flaxen cord—soft, subtle, almost unnoticeable.

Flaxen cords feel harmless. They feel like “I’m fine.” They feel like “It’s not that bad.” They feel like “Everyone else is the problem.” They can be associated with small compromises and everyday distractions that initially seem trivial, but over time can lead us down a path we never intended to walk.

We might find ourselves rationalizing decisions that, in retrospect, clearly lead away from our values or beliefs. Gradually, we become accustomed to the tightened grip of that cord, oblivious to our increasing vulnerability. Over time, each little distraction or compromise we accept acts as another loop in that cord, binding us tighter and tighter until we feel as though escape is impossible.

And then one day, you wake up and realize you’re not holding the cord. The cord is holding you. The realization can be jolting; it is a moment of clarity where we recognize how far we’ve strayed from our intended path. This moment often comes with feelings of regret, confusion, or despair, as we confront the reality of our situation.

This is exactly how 2 Nephi 26:22 operates in real life. Not with sudden destruction—but with slow spiritual erosion until the truth becomes unavoidable. It’s a gradual process, where the adversary uses our own indifference against us, allowing darker patterns to take root before we even realize the danger. Awareness becomes the first step toward liberation. By recognizing the effects of the flaxen cord, we can take action—whether seeking support, reevaluating our choices, or returning to foundational truths that can help strengthen us against the subtlety of temptation. Thus, the journey back to freedom is not only possible but essential for spiritual renewal and growth.

Hello and welcome fellow travelers. Today, we are going to focus on what it means to take that single step. How it breaks the flaxen cords that brought us into captivity, and how we take necessary action when we step out in faith and into God’s grace – a grace that empowers us to seek His will, His purpose, and brings us into a right relationship with who he is, his love, tender mercies, and joy.

Let’s pray

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Day 1 – The First Step – Honesty

“I do not boast in my own strength, nor in my own wisdom; but behold, my joy is full, yea, my heart is brim with joy, and I will rejoice in my God. Yeah, I know that I am nothing: as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things” (Alma 26:11-12)

Addiction surrenders later freedom to choose. Through chemical means, one can literally become disconnected from his or her own will.” (Elder Russell M. Nelson, in Conference Report, October 1988, 7; or Ensign, Nov. 1988, 7). 

There comes a moment in our own personal journey when the illusion of self-sufficiency collapses. We discover that the strength we trusted has betrayed us, and the wisdom we followed has led us into bondage. Yet this moment – this breaking – is not the end. It is the doorway to the only strength that can save us.

Welcome, fellow travelers. Today we walk together into the holy paradox of recovery: the place where admitting our nothingness becomes the birthplace of divine strength. The scriptures do not shame our weakness – they reveal it as the very place where Christ meets us. This journey towards wholeness involves a profound acknowledgment of our vulnerability and the limitations of our mortal existence. As we explore these spiritual truths, we uncover the transformative power inherent in our weaknesses, enabling us to forge a deeper relationship with our Creator.

Heavenly Father, we come as we are – empty, weary, and aware of our need. Thank you for your grace that teaches us the freedom of surrender. Thank you for teaching us the joy of boasting only in Your grace that strengthens us in our own weakness. Thank you for your grace that fills our nothingness with Thy strength, that we may rise in the light of Thy truth – in Jesus’ name, Amen.

There is a sacred honesty that God requires before He can remake a soul. It is not the honesty of mere confession, nor the honesty of admitting mistakes. It is the honesty of reaching the end of our own resources and discovering that our strength has never been enough. Alma’s declaration— “I know that I am nothing”—is not the groan of despair but the first breath of spiritual clarity. It is the moment when the soul stops pretending, shedding the facade of self-reliance to embrace the empowering truth of dependence on God. This is where healing begins—a transformative process that beckons us to lay down our burdens.

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CFM Feb 9-15: Genesis 6-11; Moses 8 – “Noah Found Grace in the Eyes of the Lord”

Every generation eventually reaches a moment when it looks around and whispers, “Something is wrong with the world.” In these times, violence feels all too normal, permeating the fabric of society and influencing our daily lives. The mockery of faith becomes a fashionable trend, with belief systems ridiculed and disregarded as obsolete or irrelevant. Covenant identity, once held as sacred and unbreakable, is now treated as merely optional, leading many to question their values and commitments.

Amidst this unsettling atmosphere, the quiet, steady voice of God seems drowned out by the cacophony of a culture sprinting toward self-destruction. The distractions and temptations of the modern world are many, each vying for our attention and allegiance, leaving little room for genuine reflection on our spiritual existence.

Genesis 6–11 is not ancient history. It’s a mirror reflecting our current realities. Within these verses, we can find resonating truths about the human condition and the inherent struggles we face in a world rife with chaos. The narratives captured in these chapters hold profound relevance today, illustrating the timeless nature of our challenges and the critical need for divine intervention amidst suffering and despair.

Moses 8 is not merely a prelude to the Flood; it functions as a prophetic commentary on what true discipleship can look like when the world is collapsing around you. This text invites readers to consider their own paths and the steadfastness required to remain faithful in the face of overwhelming adversity. The examples set forth serve as reminders that unwavering dedication to one’s beliefs can be both a source of strength and a beacon of hope in dark times.

Noah’s story is not merely a story about a simple boat; it is an embodiment of a God who passionately refuses to give up on His children. The narrative illustrates the depths of divine love and commitment, showing that even when humanity falters, God’s covenant remains steadfast. It’s about a covenant that refuses to die despite the floods of life that threaten to engulf us. It’s about grace that finds us, even when the world is drowning in despair, offering a lifeline steeped in hope, redemption, and the promise of a new beginning. This grace reminds us that no matter how far we stray, we are never beyond the reach of divine mercy and love.

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Mourning Ellyn— Pre‑Launch Update & Story Summary

The journey to bring Mourning Ellyn into the world is nearly complete. After months of writing, revising, restructuring, and rediscovering the emotional heart of this story, I’m excited to announce that the Kindle and Print Editions will officially launch on February 28, 2026.

This novel has grown into something deeper and more resonant than I first imagined — a story about grief, connection, redemption, and the quiet ways love continues even after loss.

Below is a full summary for readers who want to understand the heart of the book before launch.

Story Summary

Jaymes Sprague’s life shatters in an instant when his wife, Ellyn, dies unexpectedly. Only days after her passing, he finds himself slipping back into old destructive habits — the very ones he fought so hard to overcome. Grief becomes a storm he can’t outrun, and the world around him feels dimmer, heavier, and unbearably quiet.

But Jaymes isn’t as alone as he believes.

As detectives investigate the circumstances surrounding Ellyn’s death, Jaymes begins to sense her presence in the quiet spaces of his life — in memory, in intuition, in the pulse of something beyond the veil. Her love lingers, urging him forward even as he struggles to stand.

Everything changes when Jaymes finally realizes Ellyn is there, in the pulse, guiding him, anchoring him. Jaymes is forced to confront the man he became… and the man he still has the chance to be.

With the help of two detectives — Shania, steady and intuitive, and Chandler, a man quietly unraveling under the weight of his own ghosts — Jaymes begins to uncover the truth behind Ellyn’s final moments. What he finds is not just closure, but a path toward healing, forgiveness, and rediscovery.

Mourning Ellyn is a story about the fragile beauty of second chances, the power of family, and the enduring presence of love that refuses to fade — even beyond the grave.

Launch Date

Kindle Edition: February 28, 2026 Print Edition: February 28, 2026

Both formats will release together for a unified launch.

What’s Next

Over the coming weeks, I’ll share:

  • Preview excerpts
  • Behind‑the‑scenes notes
  • Character insights
  • Launch announcements
  • Pre‑order links as soon as they’re available

Thank you for your support as this story finds its way into the world. This book is deeply personal, and I’m grateful to share it with you.

More updates soon.

Discover Christ’s Redemptive Work Through the Genealogy of Genesis 5

Have you ever paused to wonder why genealogies exist in the Bible, especially Genesis 5? To many, it might seem like just a list of names and ages, but there’s profound meaning hidden within the lineage from Adam to Noah. Far from being dry details, these names reveal God’s redemptive plan and reflect His mercy, grace, and call to righteousness. Each figure, from Adam to Noah, carries a deeper message about faith, obedience, and the promises fulfilled through Christ, serving as testimonies of faithfulness that transcend generations.

This genealogy illustrates how God’s purpose unfolds through history, highlighting the significance of each individual’s role in the divine narrative. Each name serves as a bridge, connecting various aspects of God’s work in the world, linking us to the ancestors of our faith. By tracing the lineage from Adam, who represents humanity’s fall, to Noah, who represents a fresh start for mankind, we see the movement of God’s grace through generations, emphasizing that even in chaos, God remains sovereign.

Connecting the dots between the past and the future is essential in understanding the full narrative of Scripture. The genealogy emphasizes the importance of lineage in carrying forth God’s promises. It’s a vivid reminder that history is not just a series of events but is intricately woven into the tapestry of divine purpose. The names on this list are not mere placeholders; they embody individuals called and chosen by God, each with unique stories that contribute to the unfolding of His redemptive plan.

This genealogy isn’t just history—it’s a portrait of God’s covenant, showcasing the hope that arises from His faithful promises. It is also a reminder of His ongoing work in the lives of His people, demonstrating that every name represents a story of perseverance and hope, echoing across time. These genealogies remind us that God’s plan is both personal and universal, extending beyond individual lives to encompass all of humanity.

If you’ve ever felt burdened by sin or wondered how God’s love extends through time, this chapter holds answers that could reshape your understanding of redemption. It invites us to reevaluate the narrative of our lives, revealing that God’s grace is not limited by our human frailty but is ever-present, inviting us into His family regardless of our past mistakes. Each name serves as a testament that redemption is available, underscoring the truth that God actively works through His people, weaving their stories into a larger, divine story of love, grace, and hope that is eternal. As believers, we are called to reflect on our own heritage of faith, embracing the lessons learned from those who walked before us in their journeys of trust and obedience.

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Sacred Sobriety: Genesis 7:17-20 – When the Flood Prevails – Faith Endures

Every one of us knows what it feels like when the waters rise—when circumstances swell beyond our strength, when emotions surge without warning, when old patterns threaten to drown the progress we’ve made. Yet Scripture reveals a deeper truth: when the flood prevails, God prevails even more. The waters that overwhelm us never overwhelm Him.

Introduction

Welcome, fellow travelers. As we continue our journey through the Daily Exodus, we step into a moment where the floodwaters rise, the ark lifts, and God’s covenant faithfulness becomes the only stable ground in a world filled with uncertainty. In this tumultuous landscape, we find solace in the assurance that we are never alone. Today’s anchor verse reminds us that God does not merely rescue us from the flood—He carries us through it, guiding us with His unwavering love and strength. The same God who lifted Noah above the waters lifts us above addiction, shame, fear, and the remnants of our old life, empowering us to cultivate resilience and hope amidst adversity.

Anchor Verse — Genesis 7:17–20 (NASB2020)

“Then the flood came upon the earth for forty days, and the water increased and lifted up the ark, so that it rose above the earth. And the water prevailed and increased greatly upon the earth, and the ark floated on the surface of the water. And the water prevailed more and more upon the earth, so that all the high mountains everywhere under the heavens were covered. The water prevailed fifteen cubits higher, and the mountains were covered.”

As we traverse this challenging terrain together, let us hold fast to the promise that, just as the ark provided refuge during the storm, our faith acts as our shield, protecting us on this rugged path toward redemption and renewal. In the face of adversity, it is this unwavering belief that offers us solace and strength, enabling us to navigate the darkest valleys and climb the steepest mountains. Each step we take is guided by the light of our convictions, illuminating the way forward. Together, we can draw upon the deep well of inspiration that our shared journey nurtures, fostering resilience and hope as we strive for the brighter horizons that await us beyond the clouds of doubt and despair.

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Grace & Sobriety: Episode 5 – The Stillness of Trust

For Latter-day Saint Christians in recovery, there comes a pivotal moment of our journey where the noise quiets, the striving slows, and the soul needs to decide whether it will trust God in the silence or not. Not because the path is clear, but because He is clear. Trust is not passive – it is the very courageous stillness that allows God to work where our own strength cannot. Consider the profound truth of Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10).

Stillness is one of the most demanding spiritual disciplines because it requires our willingness to trust God without visible evidence. Recovery sharpens this truth: when the noise fades, when the familiar coping mechanisms fall silent, we discover whether our faith rests in God or in our own frantic activity. Stillness is not passive – it is the very courageous posture of the soul learning to trust the Lord’s timing, voice, and very divine presence.

Welcome fellow travelers to Grace and Sobriety. Today, I want to step into this sacred invitation: to be still before God and allow Him to do the work we cannot. Stillness is where recovery deepens, where identity stabilizes, and where grace becomes more than a doctrine – it becomes the very breath of life for our thriving in recovery and sobriety. For Latter-day Saint Christians walking a covenantal path of healing, forgiveness, and restoration – stillness is not about an escape; it a covenantal path of genuine discipleship.

Anchor Verse

Be still, and know that I am God.” — Psalm 46:10 (KJV); Doctrine and Covenants 101:16

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