healing through scripture – Faith & Reason

Learning to love myself was the first mountain I ever had to climb in recovery. Jesus said the greatest commandment is to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength—and the second is like it: to love our neighbor as ourselves. I thought I loved God. I thought I loved others. But I had never learned how to love me. And when I finally faced that truth, I realized I didn’t just “not love myself”—I despised myself.

When I was drunk and alone, I’d curse myself. I’d repeat the harsh words spoken over me by others—especially family. Emotional abuse, degradation, bullying, name‑calling… all of it became the internal script I lived by. I believed I was worthless, stupid, manipulative, selfish, unlovable. And because I believed it, I lived it.

So I kept God at arm’s length. I kept people at arm’s length. I feared abandonment, rejection, and judgment. I feared giving God my whole heart because I assumed He would eventually reject me too. Shame became the lens through which I saw myself, others, and God.

But recovery forced me to confront the lies. It forced me to ask: Who does God say I am? And in that painful, holy unraveling, I began to learn to love God with what little I had. I began to see myself through His eyes. And only then could I begin to love others with sincerity, depth, and courage.

Anchor verse – Hebrews 1:3 – “He is the reflection of God’s glory and the exact imprint of God’s very being, and he sustains all things by his powerful word. When he had made purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high.”

Christ is the exact imprint of God’s being—and through Him, we learn who God is, who we are, and how deeply we are loved.

Latter-day Saints who are walking a path of recovery, there is a real battle over your soul that began long before each of us were ever born. it was fought in the councils of heaven, waged over one sacred principle: your agency. Satan sought to destroy it. Christ offered to preserve it. And today, in the path of recovery, you stand at the same crossroads where that ancient conflict still echoes. The adversary still seeks to bind, deceive, and compel. The Savior still invites, empowers, and liberates. When you understand the divine gift of moral agency, you begin to understand the divine path of deliverance.

Introduction

Hello and welcome fellow travelers to Grace & Sobriety. Today, we are stepping into the very heart of deliverance. Genesis 3 and Moses 4 reveal not only the Fall of Adam and Eve but the cosmic conflict that preceded it. In this narrative, we discovery the reason recovery is not merely behavioral change – it is spiritual reclamation. It is the process of taking back what the adversary has attempted to steal: your own personal agency, your identity, your divine capacity to choose Christ. This devotional invites you to see recovery through the lens of the plan of salvation, where agency is the hinge upon which deliverance turns.

Anchor Verse

Moses 4:3 — “Satan… sought to destroy the agency of man… and I caused that he should be cast down.”

Agency is not merely the ability to choose — it is the power to become, to mold our very essence through the decisions we make each day. Satan’s rebellion was an assault on your eternal potential, challenging the divine gifts bestowed upon each of us. Christ’s atonement was the defense of your divine identity, a sacred act that restores hope and purpose to our lives. Recovery is the daily discipline of choosing Christ over compulsion, truth over deception, and grace over shame, a journey that requires unwavering commitment and resilience. In this devotional, we explore how agency becomes the foundation of deliverance for every Latter‑day Saint in recovery, emphasizing the profound impact of intentional choices that align with our spiritual truths. Through reflection and prayer, we can learn to harness our agency to not only overcome our challenges but also to empower us to reach our fullest potential and embrace the divine plan that awaits each of us.