Tag: LDS Recovery

From Rockpiles to Cathedrals

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I never realized how many various rock-piles I’ve carried with me. And I also realized I was not alone because every one of us carries rock-piles – a place in our lives that feels heavy, unfinished, unlovely, or overwhelming. In the throes of our addiction, codependency, fear, shame – a relationship may feel stuck. A past feels immovable. A future feels uncertain.

However, scripture insists that God sees more in us than the rubble we carry. He sees the cathedral hidden inside the stones.

Anchor verse – Isaiah 61:3: “…to give them a garland instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the mantle of praise instead of faint spirit. They will be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, to display his glory.”

God does not merely remove the ashes – He transforms them. He does not simply clear the rubble – He builds something enduring, beautiful, and strong.

Welcome back fellow travelers. As we continue our journey through sacred sobriety, we pause today to consider the quiet miracle of imagination – holy imagination. The ability to see what God sees. The courage to believe that the rubble of our lives is not the end of our story.

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Set the Sail – Faith Rests Upon God’s Character

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The destiny of one’s recovery is shaped by the idea of God a person carries. Traditional recovery thought teaches that newcomers enter a spiritual program where they are free to identify God “as they understand Him.” For some, this means the fellowship itself becomes a Higher Power; for others, it means any concept of a power greater than themselves.

Over time, a peculiar phrase emerged in recovery culture: “Your Higher Power can be anything — even a doorknob.” It is repeated so often that many assume it comes from the Big Book or the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions.

It does not.

Neither text suggests that an inanimate object can restore sanity, guide moral change, or receive a surrendered will. The “doorknob god” appears nowhere in AA’s foundational literature.

Anchor verse – Psalm 9:10: “Those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.

The idea actually surfaced in the treatment centers of the 1970s and 1980s. As addiction treatment became professionalized — especially in secular or state‑funded programs — counselors avoided religious language to prevent the appearance of imposing faith on clients. To lower resistance, some staff used exaggerated examples: “Even a doorknob can be your Higher Power if it helps you get started.”

It was never meant to be literal. It was a strategy to reduce defensiveness.

But like many exaggerated teaching tools, it escaped its context. It became folklore. It became satire. Critics of 12‑step spirituality used it to mock the idea of a non‑religious Higher Power. Newcomers repeated it without understanding its origin. And eventually, it became a kind of shorthand for the early, clumsy attempts to describe surrender without demanding theology.

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When Confession Breaks the Illusion: Walking in the Light of Real Recovery

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William James once wrote: “For him who confesses, shams are over and realities have begun; he has exteriorized his rottenness.”

Confession ends the exhausting work of pretending. It pulls what is hidden into the light—not to shame us, but to free us. In recovery, confession is not a one‑time event; it is a rhythm, a posture, a way of walking honestly before God and others. It invites us to step into authenticity, shedding the masks we often wear and revealing the true selves beneath.

When we consider the act of confession, it is crucial to understand that it goes far beyond simply admitting wrongdoings. It encompasses acknowledging our vulnerabilities, our fears, and our shortcomings. It is about facing the parts of ourselves that we might prefer to keep hidden or buried deep within. Confession invites us into a space of liberation, where we can experience the healing power of honesty, not just with ourselves, but with those around us.

Anchor verse – 1 John 1:9 – “If we confess our sins, he who is faithful and just will forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

This divine reassurance underscores the importance of confession in our lives. This is never a one-and-done moment. Confessing our sins is an active part of our path and spiritual growth. There is a continuous invitation to engage in this practice, to reflect regularly on our actions and attitudes, and to communicate them with sincerity. The act of confession can take various forms: it might be through prayer, journaling, or discussions with trusted friends and mentors.

There is also a communal aspect to confession; it’s about allowing others to bear witness to our journey of growth. This sharing fosters deeper connections, trust, and support within our communities. Confession can also serve as a catalyst for accountability, encouraging us to maintain our commitments to growth and change.

And there is more to confessing than we may fully understand. What are some of the ways we may confess? And what does it refer to when it says to confess our sins? What exactly are we confessing? Most of us may answer that we are to confess any wrongdoing on our part. And that is definitely an aspect of confessing.

But it may also refer to confessing our failures, our doubts, and our feelings of inadequacy. It may involve voicing the pain we carry and the burdens we bear, creating an opportunity for healing. Confession is a profound act of vulnerability that invites grace and understanding into our lives, not only from God but also from those around us who may offer support and encouragement. Through confession, we can truly experience the freedom that comes with honesty, forgiveness, and a renewed sense of purpose on our spiritual journey.

Today – we are going to take a look at how confession is the very courage to stop pretending. To step out of the idea that we need to fake it till we make it. And to see how this all ties into a twelve-step recovery program for Christians walking a path of recovery, desiring to thrive in their sobriety.

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The Architecture of Anger: Navigating Threats, Expectations, and Addiction in the Refiner’s Fire of Recovery

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Anger is not a random eruption. It is a structure—a system of triggers, distortions, and emotional wounds that form a predictable pattern. This understanding of anger as a structured response is crucial because it helps us identify the root causes of our emotions rather than viewing them as mere spontaneous reactions. In recovery, gaining insights into this architecture becomes essential for healing and personal growth. Consider this, “Anger is a progressive challenge in recovery and a symptom of deeper pain.”

This notion emphasizes that anger often masks underlying issues, such as unresolved trauma, anxiety, or fear. By acknowledging these connections, we can address the true sources of our anger instead of simply reacting to it. When we learn to map its components—recognizing our triggers, understanding the distortions in our thought patterns, and confronting our emotional wounds—we stop being acted upon by these feelings.

In doing so, we transition from a passive experience of anger to one where we can act with spiritual clarity and agency. This active engagement allows us to express our emotions constructively, facilitating healthier interactions and fostering deeper connections with ourselves and others. Embracing the complexity of anger paves the way for genuine healing and allows for the development of coping strategies that contribute to a balanced emotional life. Ultimately, this journey empowers us to reclaim our well-being and operate from a place of understanding and compassion.

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Day 2 – A Single Step

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And there are also secret combinations, even as in times of old, according to the combinations of the devil, for he is the founder of all these things; yea, … and he leadeth them by the neck with a flaxen cord, until he bindeth them with his strong cords forever.
~ 2 Nephi 26:22 ~

There’s a reason the scriptures don’t say the adversary drags us with chains from the beginning. They say he starts with a flaxen cord—soft, subtle, almost unnoticeable.

Flaxen cords feel harmless. They feel like “I’m fine.” They feel like “It’s not that bad.” They feel like “Everyone else is the problem.” They can be associated with small compromises and everyday distractions that initially seem trivial, but over time can lead us down a path we never intended to walk.

We might find ourselves rationalizing decisions that, in retrospect, clearly lead away from our values or beliefs. Gradually, we become accustomed to the tightened grip of that cord, oblivious to our increasing vulnerability. Over time, each little distraction or compromise we accept acts as another loop in that cord, binding us tighter and tighter until we feel as though escape is impossible.

And then one day, you wake up and realize you’re not holding the cord. The cord is holding you. The realization can be jolting; it is a moment of clarity where we recognize how far we’ve strayed from our intended path. This moment often comes with feelings of regret, confusion, or despair, as we confront the reality of our situation.

This is exactly how 2 Nephi 26:22 operates in real life. Not with sudden destruction—but with slow spiritual erosion until the truth becomes unavoidable. It’s a gradual process, where the adversary uses our own indifference against us, allowing darker patterns to take root before we even realize the danger. Awareness becomes the first step toward liberation. By recognizing the effects of the flaxen cord, we can take action—whether seeking support, reevaluating our choices, or returning to foundational truths that can help strengthen us against the subtlety of temptation. Thus, the journey back to freedom is not only possible but essential for spiritual renewal and growth.

Hello and welcome fellow travelers. Today, we are going to focus on what it means to take that single step. How it breaks the flaxen cords that brought us into captivity, and how we take necessary action when we step out in faith and into God’s grace – a grace that empowers us to seek His will, His purpose, and brings us into a right relationship with who he is, his love, tender mercies, and joy.

Let’s pray

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Day 1 – The First Step – Honesty

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“I do not boast in my own strength, nor in my own wisdom; but behold, my joy is full, yea, my heart is brim with joy, and I will rejoice in my God. Yeah, I know that I am nothing: as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things” (Alma 26:11-12)

Addiction surrenders later freedom to choose. Through chemical means, one can literally become disconnected from his or her own will.” (Elder Russell M. Nelson, in Conference Report, October 1988, 7; or Ensign, Nov. 1988, 7). 

There comes a moment in our own personal journey when the illusion of self-sufficiency collapses. We discover that the strength we trusted has betrayed us, and the wisdom we followed has led us into bondage. Yet this moment – this breaking – is not the end. It is the doorway to the only strength that can save us.

Welcome, fellow travelers. Today we walk together into the holy paradox of recovery: the place where admitting our nothingness becomes the birthplace of divine strength. The scriptures do not shame our weakness – they reveal it as the very place where Christ meets us. This journey towards wholeness involves a profound acknowledgment of our vulnerability and the limitations of our mortal existence. As we explore these spiritual truths, we uncover the transformative power inherent in our weaknesses, enabling us to forge a deeper relationship with our Creator.

Heavenly Father, we come as we are – empty, weary, and aware of our need. Thank you for your grace that teaches us the freedom of surrender. Thank you for teaching us the joy of boasting only in Your grace that strengthens us in our own weakness. Thank you for your grace that fills our nothingness with Thy strength, that we may rise in the light of Thy truth – in Jesus’ name, Amen.

There is a sacred honesty that God requires before He can remake a soul. It is not the honesty of mere confession, nor the honesty of admitting mistakes. It is the honesty of reaching the end of our own resources and discovering that our strength has never been enough. Alma’s declaration— “I know that I am nothing”—is not the groan of despair but the first breath of spiritual clarity. It is the moment when the soul stops pretending, shedding the facade of self-reliance to embrace the empowering truth of dependence on God. This is where healing begins—a transformative process that beckons us to lay down our burdens.

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Episode 4: The Proving Ground

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Welcome fellow travelers. This is Grace and Sobriety for Latter-day Saints on a path of recovery and living a sober life through Jesus Christ and His Gospel.

Does it ever feel like the moment you decide to get sober or fix your life, everything suddenly gets harder? That resistance isn’t failure—it’s actually proof that you’re on the right path

In this episode, we’re looking at Abraham 3 to discover why God calls this life a ‘proving ground.’ We’re going to learn how to turn that intense pressure into the power you need to break your chains.

I want to share with you today how we’re going to prove that you are one of the ‘noble and great ones.’ Let’s get into it and like, share, and subscribe – following this content and all other content.

Anchor Verse:

“And we will prove them herewith, to see if they will do all things whatsoever the Lord their God shall command them.” — Abraham 3:25

In our previous episodes, we established our nothingness without God (Moses 1), claimed our identity as His children (Moses 1), and found the courage to seek a better way (Abraham 1).

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Episode 3: The Courage to Seek

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Welcome fellow travelers. This is Grace and Sobriety for Latter-day Saints on a path of recovery and living a sober life through Jesus Christ and His Gospel.

We often think our battle is just against a behavior, a bottle, or a doubt. But what if the real war is actually over your name? The adversary wants you to believe you are just your past mistakes.

But in this week’s study of Moses 1 and Abraham 3, God takes us back before the beginning to settle the score once and for all. He reminds Moses—and He’s reminding you—that before you were anything else, you were His.

Today, we are going to learn how to use your divine identity to silence the darkness. Welcome to the devotional message.

Anchor Verse:

“And, finding there was greater happiness and peace and rest for me, I sought for the blessings of the fathers… desiring also to be one who possessed great knowledge, and to be a greater follower of righteousness, and to possess a greater knowledge, and to be a father of many nations, a prince of peace.” — Abraham 1:2

In our previous devotionals, we explored Moses 1: first, the humility of realizing our own “nothingness” without God (Day 1), and second, the power of claiming our divine identity when the adversary tries to define us by our past (Day 2).

Additional Scriptures:

  • Moses 1:20: “And it came to pass that Moses began to fear exceedingly; and as he began to fear, he saw the bitterness of hell. Nevertheless, calling upon God, he received strength.” (The pivot from fear to action).
  • Abraham 1:5: “My fathers, having turned from their righteousness… refused to hearken to my voice.” (The reality that we often have to recover despite our environment).

Today, we transition to Abraham 1, which serves as the perfect companion to Moses’s stand. While Moses illustrates standing your ground against darkness, Abraham illustrates walking away from it. Abraham lived in a toxic environment—Ur of the Chaldees—surrounded by the idolatry of his fathers and a culture of spiritual death. Yet, instead of succumbing to the environment or merely coping with it, Abraham sought something better. He didn’t just want to escape the bad; he hungered for “greater happiness and peace.”

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Day 2 – The Weapon of Identity

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Moses 1:12–16; Romans 8:16-17; 2 Timothy 1:7

Theme: Confrontation, Sonship, & The Hierarchy of Value

And it came to pass that when Moses had said these words, behold, Satan came tempting him, saying: Moses, son of man, worship me. And it came to pass that Moses looked upon Satan and said: Who art thou? For behold, I am a son of God, in the similitude of his Only Begotten; and where is thy glory, that I should worship thee? For behold, I could not look upon God, except his glory should come upon me, and I were transfigured before him. But I can look upon thee in the natural man. Is it not so, surely? Blessed be the name of my God, for his Spirit hath not altogether withdrawn from me, or else where is thy glory, for it is darkness unto me? And I can judge between thee and God; for God said unto me: Worship God, for him only shalt thou serve. Get thee hence, Satan; deceive me not; for God said unto me: Thou art after the similitude of mine Only Begotten.
~ Moses 1:12-16 ~

There are moments in the life of every believer when heaven has spoken, the soul has bowed, and the world has fallen silent. Moses had just come from such a moment. He had tasted the “mercy of nothingness”—the holy undoing that comes when a man stands before God and discovers that all self‑importance is dust. But Scripture shows us a pattern: whenever God empties a man, the enemy rushes to fill the vacuum.

The adversary does not wait for weakness; he waits for surrender. He appears not when Moses is proud, but when Moses is humbled. Not when Moses is full of himself, but when he is emptied of Egypt. This is the rhythm of spiritual warfare: revelation is followed by confrontation.

Satan’s first words are calculated: “Moses, son of man, worship me.” He does not tempt Moses with pleasure, but with identity. He attempts to rename him. The enemy always begins by lowering the value of the soul. If he can convince you that you are merely a creature of dust, he can command your worship. If he can strip you of sonship, he can strip you of authority.

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